When Nothing Seems To Matter

Mind Matters - #SB4MHI’m on a bit of a break; from Twitter at least, I still have some posts either queued or in draft on my blogs to keep them ticking over for a while.

Due to the inexplicable workings of my brain chemistry, things have taken a much darker turn recently. Nothing seems to matter very much at the moment, least of all me. Even the things that, generally, I am most passionate about, fail to register or, at most, elicit a “Meh” response.

Every now and then, I write a post that is really just for me; it’s a way of trying to release the darkness and relieve the numbness of living day-to-day or, in some cases, hour-to-hour. This is one of those posts. The only person it is really intended for is me; so, if you have wasted a few moments of your life reading this only to discover there was no real point to my ramblings, I can only apologise.

I am aware that this is simply another iteration of an all too familiar process; one that I have written about so many times before that if you are reading this, you are probably bored of reading it. I know that, like all the other times, this spell will (probably) pass and I will achieve some sort of equilibrium again. Knowing this does not make the “now” any easier. The rut has become a dark maze of trenches with no easily discernible exit and no light to guide my passage through it.



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  1. I also find that writing can help me to process things and get out of my own head a bit. I hope it works for you and that you are feeling better soon. Hugs 🤗


  2. Fighting my own dark thoughts and knowing how difficult it is, but how important to get your words out there, if only for yourself, I am sending you lots of hugs, but not only for you, also for me, because hugging others when they need it, helps me too. Never apologize for your words. Never.


    Rebel xox


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