Word for Wednesday – Doppelgänger


Word For WednesdayDoppelgänger

/daw-puh l-geng-er/

noun

  1. ghostly double or counterpart of a living person

I sometimes wonder where the Zen Nudist ends and Kilted Wookie begins; or indeed where they both end and the “real” me begins.

I have written before about how the Zen Nudist/Kilted Wookie dichotomy came to be but, I am an extreme compartmentaliser by nature. Every facet of my life is neatly filed away in its own space. I have cultured different online personae for different aspects of my personality so that each has its own voice and its own place in the world.

Some of you may follow all of my various online incarnations, some may follow only one. Those of you who know me by more than one of my identities will almost certainly notice that, no matter who much I try to keep them apart, there is a degree of overlap and a number of common themes that are an inevitable consequence of “us” all inhabiting the same consciousness.

The truth is, I am, of course, the sum of all of those aspects and more. I am a totality of those elements I share through whichever outlet I deem most appropriate, and those things that I keep tightly to myself, forever hidden away from the world at large. KW/ZeN and I are not actually Doppelgänger, we are simply different parts of the same whole; coexisting in time and in physical space, and one could not exist without the other simply because they are, in fact, one and not other at all.

Through twitter and my blog, I have allowed different aspects of myself and my personality to have their own lives and voices. Each separate “me” is able to articulate its own interactions with the world around it; where ZeN philosophises, KW exhibits, but both are simply “me” expressing myself.

As humans, we all chose the bits of ourselves that we share and with whom we share them. We are all many different people depending on who it is that observes us and interacts with us. We all have those bits of ourselves we prefer not to let others see.

We all possess our own counterparts, our own Doppelgänger.

KW/ZeN/Me

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  1. We are all the sum of all our different persona’s, whether online or offline. I never pretend to be anything or anyone else online than I am offline. I actually never think of my voice online. I just am who I am wherever I am.

    Rebel xox

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    1. I get that. For me it’s more that I speak to different (albeit overlapping) communities. The smut and mental health communities have quite a lot of overlap, but not everyone in either camp wants to read about both topics, so while ZeN/KW (and even my vanilla persona) has always been open about my mental health, that’s not the primary focus. Similarly, not everyone who interacts with me on mental health, wants to have my smut on their timeline, so I allow them to interact with a filth-free version.

      My vanilla me doesn’t really ever talk about either subject, and if completely Certificate U.

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  2. I love this as it really struck a chord, I know the different parts of me, I write a piece about them, and it’s true that different parts will present depending on the company, the circumstances etc. There’s great psychological theory work about internal family systems that I find interesting that deals with such things. Great piece.

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  3. You just “sang my life” with your words.

    I, too, lead a multifaceted existence where different aspects of ‘me’ exist independently (and dependently) of my real life persona. Very few know (or knowingly know) the whole onion, only ever interacting with specific layers. Still, it was cool to read your analysis of it all and wonderful to see another creative soul advocating self-expression.

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  4. I am currently reading Black Milk by Elif Shafak, and she writes about the harem within. For her, in particular, that is comprised of 6 separate identities that are sometimes at odds and sometimes in harmony.

    We all have them, though some, like you, compartmentalize them, others blend them. I wish I could do either better.

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